What does all of this struggle and frustration teach me? Big question, little answer.
I am putting on a $10,000 event. It’s kind of a huge deal. I’m bringing in a presenter team that is known around the country for their work in my field and for their work as spiritual growth leaders for my profession. I pursued them for a year and a half.
I got them. They’re coming in October. And I have never been so frustrated in my entire life. It feels like one frustration after another has come up and I’m doing my very best not to burn this bridge (burning bridges is my superpower) and keep a cool head. I’m in this path of trying to find personal growth, a dose of enlightenment. And it’s been killing me that I keep running into road blocks.
I keep catching glimpses of the lessons I’m meant to learn… “don’t rush it” “keep the big picture in mind” “Breathing is necessary.”
Then, I was listening to Mastin Kipp of The Daily Love and he’s basically talking about re-framing your experiences and he says, “What if this was a gift? What if this is necessary what if actually all this crazy stuff going on is an answer to my deepest prayer?”
That hit home for me in a big way. I’ve been trying to keep all of the things I’ve learned in the forefront of my mind. I’ve told several people, “I can’t wait to do the next one, I’ve learned so much!” However, I’m not sure I’d gotten to the point of “THIS whole experience is meant to fall out this way. Relax into it.”
That’s my simple answer – relax into it. The thing is, I come to this same answer over and over and over and over and over again. But, each time I go a little deeper, understand it a teensy bit more than the time before. Sometimes that answer will flat out blindside me. It is, however, forward motion.